Thoughts,Songs,Writings,Rants,Encouragements, and Life

Friday, September 30, 2005

Me and MY guitar...

Yep, that is right! I bought myself a guitar this week...thank you grandma for the birthday money way back in April. (it was just enough)

The goods:
One Givson Jumbo Cut a way, with pickup, and Rosewood original wood. And a one year (Indian) garauntee. Also one really flimsy, but will do for now, guitar bag. Plus about 5 picks, and a nice little booklet on what I might actually be getting close to playing in the chord area.

I am way excited about this...this past week I have written three songs...two I like and one that is kindove a goodbye song...that was just needed for the moment. (goodbye Leanne)

Perhaps I will put a picture of me and my guitar on here one day. As for now...we need to come up with a name for it...any suggestions??

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

-Miss You-

And the heart has room, for so much more
I'm hoping to find, what I'm looking for
My heart it breaks, oh how it aches
Been searching so long, for you my Lord

And the Lonesome...Pine
While the dreamers...Fly
And we're all...Waiting
For you to say we're fine

And the lovers...Romance
While the others...Dance
And we're all...Waiting
For when you come, come back

Please believe me, when I say
That I will love, for always
Hope you don't mind, all these calls
I just thought you'd, answer them all

I don't belong here
I don't fit in
I'm not of this world
I miss you my friend

I don't belong here
I don't fit in
I'm longing for home
With my Lord once again

I miss you
I miss you
I miss you (3x)

And the heart has room, for so much more
I'm hoping to find, what I'm looking for...

Sunday, September 18, 2005


Today I recieved a gift from someone...

I feel humbled that this person would wish to give me a gift. She was only here in India for a couple months. Our friendship was not great. In fact we really spent little time together. But she left this morning to go home...and she left me an encouragement and an awesome gift...

A couple nights ago I was thinking that I would like to purchase a Harmonica...sometime in the future...not anytime soon...but sometime...

Today I opened the package from her (Betka). Inside was a nice Christianese card, but what was written on the card was amazing...

"All men dream, but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recsses of their minds, wake in the day to find it was vanity: but the dreamers of the day are dangerious men, for they may act their dreams with open eyes, to make it possible. This I did. " T.E. Lawrence

I don't know about you, but that is a great quote!!

Oh yeah, As i went further into the package I noticed a small box...I opened the box...and inside the box, was none other than a brand new Harmonice!!! How cool is that!!!

God and people never cease to amaze me and bless me at the same time...

Thank you Betka and Friends

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

A lesson in Telegu

Ready Class? Begin learning a whole new language Now...

Bhagunnava-How are you?
Bhagu nanu- I am fine
kneepeariente-what is your name?
nah paru_______-My name is....
dhevuniki sthotram-Praise the Lord

And that class is todays lesson...

Monday, September 12, 2005

American Football

I have to admit something here on the blog. I want to be honest and open with all ye all. This weekend I was freakishly giddy. I was so excited for the football season to begin. I had shivers...couldn't sleep...was in anticipation of how the games would turn out. I am in four, yes four fantasy leagues...and well...I have some good teams...

This is odd to me...three years ago...I didn't really follow football...just something to watch on the fact I really liked college football back then...but now, is all about the american football league...three years have passed...and I am now in my third fantasy season...and this year i finally understand most of the rules...and can keep up with Rob Fuller and Scott Moore...somewhat...

So will this fantasy season yeild a winning season? Will it yeild a championship? Or will I get squashed like every other year? I have a feeling that this year holds many good things for the teams of Ben in India.

After week one...I am week will be better...

Play Ball

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Concerning Katrina...The Rant

My last post was a poem I wrote the other I will explain it...

I have one thing to say today about hurricane Katrina. This is a tragedy. This is chaos. This is a sad state of affairs. Some people genuinly wish to help (and are), some people say it, but wont step up to the plate. People sit in their houses and blame Bush for not helping. The journalists report the disaster and then move onto the sports update (no emotions added). And then the people involved in the situation are in pain, need support, and help. But what about the warnings?

You see, they knew Katrina was calling. They were told to leave (they stayed put). They were given a chance to claim safety. Many fled, but many aslo stayed. And now the world blames Bush and the U.S. Government. Now the world (USA mostly) claims ingnorance. And folks, I am sick of it!

The problem is not the governments. It's not Bush's. It is not even New Orleans or America's. The problem is...YOU! Yes, No Joke. The problem lies within us all. We see the need and then pass on it for something closer to home or more comforting. We need to do something about this...

This issue (New Orleans) reminds me a lot of the worlds view of the church (as an organization). People expect to walk into a church and be fed or ministered to. The thought of them ministering never crosses their minds. WHY? "oh, that is the job of my pastor and his staff, not mine." WRONG!!! The church is not meant to be the only ministers. We are supposed to be the ministers. We are supposed to be going into the community and showing Christ's love and compassion. Not the church or in Katrina's case...the government.

We as a country need to get off of our butts (i would love to use another word here), and start doing some action. Quit hypothisizing and go do it!! Even if you are 3,000 miles away...use your brain, I am sure you can figure out a way to get involved (pity does not count).

Jesus perspective:

Jesus was the greatest servant ever. (you are now asking what servanthood has to do with KAtrina...I say...Everything!) We as believers are called to be servants...right now we need to answer that call.

Simply put...

1. Chose service over self interest.
a) don't ask about what the government/ country should be doing. ask what you can do for the country. (This should not be the simple should take you out of your comfort zone)

2. Think like a servant.
a) We need to have the right attitude, not aptitude.
b) It is our mindset, not our ability.

Philippians 2:5-11 (read it for yourself in your own version please)

c) When a servant does something, it is always for the good of another, never for his own goopd.
d) A servant puts the interests of God and others ahead of his or her own.

Check it out...some more perspective

John 13:4-5

Peter didn't like this at all. He believed Jesus, as the guest of honor, should not be doing this (washing the feet of the disciples). Have you ever stopped and wondered why Peter got so ticked?? Perhaps because Peter knew it was not Jesus responsibility in the first place. Washing feet was the job for the lowest of slaves (some people might put the government in this position). This was unheard of! Jesus was their teacher. If anything, they should be washing His feet.

You see "The room was filled with proud hearts and dirty feet. The disciples were willing to fight for a throne (perhaps better taxes), but fighting for a towel (Katrina) never crossed their minds." In other words..."We are willing to bash the government and blame them, when we should be the ones picking up th slack and pulling the weight."

We are so keen on blaming and pointing the finger. And yet really, what are we doing to help? We are called to is a perfect opportunity. Will you chose to blame your government, hide behind your fritos and telivision, or figure out a way to get the job done? I am sure you can come up with something...

I leave you with this story...these are not my words...i do not know who wrote this...but it fits well...

The Four People-

This is a little story about 4 people named EVERYBODY, SOMEBODY, ANYBODY, and NOBODY.
There was an important job to be done and EVERYBODY was sure that SOMEBODY would do it. ANYBODY could have done it, but NOBODY did it. SOMEBODY got angry about that because it was EVERYBODYS job. EVERYBODY thought ANYBODY could do it, but NOBODY realized that EVERYBODY wouldn't do it. It ended up that EVERYBODY blamed SOMEBODY when NOBODY did what ANYBODY could have done...

Monday, September 05, 2005

Mr President (concerning Katrina)

According to the newsman Mr. President
You control the weather now

According to my friends Mr. President
This is somehow your fault

According to the paper Mr. President
You didn't want to help

According to my country Mr. President
The ball is in your court

According to my opinion Mr. President
You are doing just fine

According to my belief Mr. President
The greatest need is compassion

You are not to blame
God is not to blame
We are not to blame
I am not to blame
NO ONE is to blame
Now let's go deal with this thing...

(there is so much I want to say right much much lack of understanding...i guess i might write more on this later...but be pre-warned...i can Offend...and dont mind if i do.)

Sunday, September 04, 2005

Tennis in the morning...

The last two evenings of my life have been spent watching some really good Tennis...

Yep...I said Tennis...No, I am not crazy and I am not completely sold on the sport.


Nadal and Blake at 2:00 AM was a great match to see...amazing skills and finesse!

And then last night...Maria and Sania!!! Wow! Two 18 year old chicks who can seriously hit a Tennis ball and LOOK good doing it!!

Tennis is slowly growing on me! Although I seriously need some I must break away from the game for a few days...and turn my attention too FOOTBALL...Ah yeah...season starts thursday baby!!! BRING IT!!!